My little appleseed

So I'm now 5 weeks pregnant. Not much has changed. I feel queasy at times but it's not too bad. Mainly I just feel extremely exhausted all the time. A nap sounds great 24 hours a day.

I got this weekly pregnancy update in my email that tells me how the baby is growing and all this fun stuff. This week it is the size of an appleseed. I'm going to call it that all week. My little appleseed.

On a completely different note, because of the stupid ice storm, we still have no power so we have been staying at Trin's house. I really, really hope it comes back on soon. Not that I don't mind staying at Trin's (and I am so thankful they have allowed us to) I just really miss my home. Please, power, come back!

seriously?

Watching tv last night and an insurance commercial came on.

I cried.

I was watching some other tv show about a wedding.

I cried.

I feel like I am constantly on the verge of tears. I'm ready to not be on hormone overload.....but I guess that won't be happening any time soon.

And the wait begins

So I pretty much think my head is going to explode from all the reading I have done the past 3 days. Andi brought me some of her pregnancy books and I have read the majority of them. And looked up everything I could possibly need to know about being pregnant online. I can honestly say I think I'm ready for this whole carrying another human being inside of me thing. As creepy as that sounds to me right now.

All there is to do now is wait, and boy is there a long time for that! From what I calculated online my due date is October 1st. I am looking forward to my first doctor appointment though, which is on March 4th. Getting to hear the heartbeat and seeing it on the ultrasound will make it seem more real to me I think.

We have names picked out already so I can't even distract myself with that task. As for what sex we want....it doesn't matter to me. Ben wants a boy but is convinced it is a girl. I guess for his sake I want a boy but really.....I don't care. Well that's all there is to report for now, I'll keep you all updated!

And that's that

Yep you are seeing right....I'm pregnant. Most of you probably knew that already.

Um, I don't really know what to say or think yet. All I know it that Ben and I are both really excited. So yeah.....that's that.

Lilly

Last week Lilly got fixed and of course, it didn't slow her down for even a fraction of a moment. But yesterday her incision did not look so good....kinda swollen and the staples were ripping her skin and grossness was all around. Well though it didn't seem to affect her at all, I thought I'd call the vet to make sure. I told them everything and they said to bring her in to be looked at. I had to just drop her off cause they didn't have any appointments and the vet would look at here when she got a chance. Well about 15 minutes later they called. They said everything looked OK (it did NOT look ok to me, just ask Trin) but I trusted them.

They said to put Neosporin on it and that she would get an Eco (I think that's what they called it ) Collar so she doesn't lick it. Yes it is one of those funnel looking things. She looks so pathetic with it on but it's only for a week until she gets her staples removed. I don't have a picture of that yet but here is some of her and Cyrus from the other day.

Sitting pretty

And then she eats his face..

I love these dogs!

Fasting Day 9

All goes well...mostly.

I have had horrible cravings for "normal" food. This week has been a little bit easier than last. I really want cheese. Why is that? Out of everything I have cut out of my diet, cheese is pretty much the only thing that is killing me not to have.

We did just water again on Sunday and it was also much easier than last week. One more day of just water and then the home stretch next week.

I do feel that I have gotten much, much closer to God through all of this. Even though some crap has happened, I haven't completely lost it cause I have my faith in God and am comforted by Him.

Hope all you other fasters are doing well.

P.S. I took pictures of the dogs last night but of course forgot to bring them in to post. Hopefully I'll get to that before the end of the week.

Peace.

God is a pretty cool guy..

Ben and I live out in the country and have a propane tank that we use for heating our house. Well it came time to fill it up for the rest of the winter so I called the company and since I know it could be pretty expensive, I asked if they did a budget billing where I could split the payments over 12 months instead of paying all together. The replied "Oh yes, when you get your bill just call the corporate office and they will set it up." I though that was awesome (since we didn't have the money to pay up front) and told them to come out and fill up the tank. They did.

I got the receipt a few days later and it was $776.07. Yeah that's a big number when you're broke but I didn't think much of it cause if I could pay over 12 months it would be around $65 a month which we could handle.

So the next day I called to set up the budget billing and she said they only set that up between March and September. I was stumped and furious. WHY WOULD THEY NOT TELL ME THAT WHEN I ASKED ABOUT IT?????? So she said we have 30 days to pay and if we didn't it would ruin our credit with them and we would have to pay before they brought it from then on and blah blah blah.

I can't even explain the anger I had. I had to just hang up because I knew I would say things I would regret.

How the heck was I going to pay $776 in a month???

That's when God stepped in.

Ben has a 4-wheeler that he has been trying to sell for about a year and a half with absolutely no luck. Well.....the day after I got the gas bill, Ben got a phone call from a guy wanting to buy it the next day. For how much you may ask???

$800.00

Ben hadn't prayed about selling his 4-wheeler until a couple of days before and I was praying for God to provide.

Kinda awesome that as soon as something hit us that we couldn't pay, God gave us the money to pay it. God is so cool.

"Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall." (Psalm 55:22)

Lilly and fasting Day 2

I don't think I ever posted about my puppy that I got. I had been wanting another dog for Cyrus for a long time and I knew I wanted a boxer (cause that's what Cyrus is a mix with.) But we could never find a cheap pure bred boxer. That is until one day Ben found an ad for some very cheap ones. So I called and the next day we drove 2 hours to go pick her up. She was the runt and the only girl left so I just had to have her. My early Christmas present.

That was about 2 months ago. I would post pictures but I'm a slacker and forgot to bring them with me to work to upload them but believe me she is the cutest darn thing you will ever see. She is also the meanest. She is only about 20lbs right now but she has full authority and control over Cyrus (who is 80 lbs.) Don't get me wrong she loves to cuddle too but she is in full puppy mode still and full of spunk.

Tomorrow she gets fixed. I am sad that she has to go through it but I know it is necessary. Cyrus also gets to go to the vet to get his shots, so tomorrow morning should be interesting. I am making Ben go with me cause there is no way I could handle them on my own let alone if there are any other dogs there (Cyrus insists on being friends with every dog he sees)

As for fasting, well....I will be honest and say it is freaking hard. Ben got really sick last night and couldn't go to either of his jobs and I woke up this morning with a splitting headache and was incredibly shaky. Since Trin is doing this with me, we decided that since Pastor Aaron said we could split it up any way we want we decided it would be best to do one day of just water once a week. So I had an apple this morning and it was awesome. I feel 100% better. I will still be following the guidelines for the Daniel Fast for 21 days. I can honestly say that I can already feel God moving in my life. If it's only day 2, I can't wait to see where I'm at on day 21.

Daniel Fast- Day 1

Ben works third shift and last night was the first night be has worked in 2 weeks because he was on vacation. Since we started fasting today, he had to go all night without food. He came home this morning whining like a baby about how hungry he was. It had only been 8 hours. Something tells me he's not going to be a happy camper by Wednesday evening. But I suppose I too, will be pretty grumpy by the end of today so I can't really say anything.

I have many things to be praying about and can't wait to see what God is going to do.

To everyone else out there fasting, good luck and my prayers are with you!

Short update

In preparation for my upcoming Daniel Fast which starts on Monday....I have cut out soda's already from my diet. My last one was on Christmas day and let me tell you, it's been a rough week. I have had some pretty horrible headaches from lack of caffeine but that makes me realize more than anything that it needed to be done.

Also, Ben has decided to do the fast with me. You have no idea how excited this makes me. No idea. Not only is it going to make it easier for me to do, but for him I am deeply excited. I mentioned before that I had a pretty crap-o-la year and well Ben did to. I know he's been struggling big time and having a hard time getting over his past and putting faith in God but we had a long talk the other day and he is ready to be a warrior for God and put his past behind him. Am I am too! I am so anxious about what God is going to reveal to us during this fast and what plans He has for us this year.

The devil kicked us around pretty hard in 2008 but this year it's not going to be that easy for him.

"Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. " - Psalm 25:4-5